I'm doing my final year elective in choreography. To begin with I found it really hard to get started, but seem to be on track now. It's about forgiveness. It's something I really struggle with, have struggled with and will probably continue to struggle with! Questions like, what is forgiveable?-what is unforgiveable? How do I forgive?!

I understand dance, I understand form, dynamics, devices, movement, space and patterns. Intention of movement and meaning portrayed through dance is easier for me than words almost! I wanted to portray the struggle with the mind and the heart on the road to forgiveness. I wanted to use the idea of confrontation...that often it is necessary for forgiveness, even if it is not with another person, maybe confrontation of personal fears, or forgiveness of self is necessary for total peace of heart and mind.

For me, the relief and release that comes with forgiving is huge. It's often one massive mountain but the view from the top is awesome. Stories in the news about people who have forgiven the most horrific things are amazing. Sometimes, I think I could never do that, but the peace they get from forgiving is capable of providing freedom, unity, love and all sorts of other wonderful things too!
 
Sometimes I see people holding grudges over things that I would consider petty, such as arriving late, forgetting things....and so on. I don't see the point!-life is far too short. The struggle with self is almost like having something eat me up inside, I have to let it out or it devours me. You have to uproot it and throw it away. Reconcilliation, although difficult can be such a releasing thing!-the calm and peace which comes from this is awesome. The Bible teaches us to forgive, certainly I should forgive myself, after all Jesus loves me! It's hard to realise all this freedom comes from forgiving stuff, let alone put it into practice, but at least I'm half way there!

Without forgiveness, there is no future. -Bishop Desmond Tutu.