:-o

whoops

decided to sit down in front of this guy with long legs who was obviously incensed that he had to move them in order for me to shuffle past and sit down. we exchanged brief eye contact while i whispered thank you and his eyes flew daggers.
So, I'm reading my book and becoming happily engrossed in my own little world.

http://winthecheltenhamhouse.com/

i think it's genius!

So, I don't know how I didn't manage to get around to blogging for your prayer help the other day ... but I didn't. However, it's not too late ;o)

My brother Dave:

He's 26 (he says 27 but that's not til Nov), and he's got downs syndrome and he's my angel.

On the monday just gone he was supposed to have an eye operation (cornea transplant) and he spent the whole day without food (he LOVES his food) only to have three surgeons eventually come and apologise that they'd run out of corneas because of an emergency (much earliar in the day ... I actually think they dropped his on the floor) and hadn't been to tell him and mum ... so they booked him in the following day for 6pm (he got to come home, lie in and eat a proper breakfast before going back which he was rather chuffed about).

my patient has just now managed to lift her leg of the bed without assistance after 9 days of hard work doing her exercise - it's a pre-requisite before they can go home after their op.


woooooooooohooo!

we hugged, that was nice.

:-)

I'd like to say that I went on date on saturday and came away feeling rather inadequate ...


and now i'd like to say i'm over it

:o)

god made me the way I am, and He loves me so i don't care much what anyone else thinks.

i'm sorry i've been pretty darn absent of late ... things happened and i didn't really feel like i had much to say out loud, but a lot to be getting on with ye know?

i'm so out of touch with what you lovely members have been up to and joking about, especially sorry to have missed out on anyone's prayer requests!! I hope you're all hunkydory, one day I will catch up on all the stories over the last couple of months (possibly)!

when you give everything away, there's nothing left in reserve.

there really isn't

i've reached meltdown.

the thing is, it's unhealthy. funny that.

but when i'm on empty and then accept some attention from a guy ... i lean so far over they have to catch me or walk away. and it's so unfair on them. so i pretty much never do.

until recently. and then i ran away.

Every night I walk back from the station my feet meet a dreaded

"crunch"
it's the most horrifyingly horrible thing in the world (in that moment). and ...

not just one
not just two
but usually three

why do i find myself feeling out of place because of dress codes among certain social groups or in certain environments?

i hate codes, especially dress ones. i hate that feeling when you feel overwhelmed to join the wolves, because if you don't heaven forbid the judgements that will ensue. 

it's really hard not to miss the slightly dodgy superficial looks people give each other sometimes ... it's difficult not to feel pelted by one when you're on the receiving end ... and i find myself having to tell myself off when i do it back, or even start the bloomin pelting!