..too long have i read with academic eyes - pretending a facade of study when truly the self indulgent nature to self analyze would overtake..and yet the Holy Spirit ever so gently whispers in the sweetest breath 'I AM with you'..the WORD penetrates through my  'self'  and i am made whole i am awakened and sit in joy knowing that i am free..and then the moment passes and i struggle to study again and again until the Holy Spirit once again finds a breath in my stronghold of intellectual design and speaks again and again 'I AM with you'...this circle this cycle until i am broken and i see the Body around me - i see all the parts that i am not - that i know not of..and i see i realize that i am so small so insignificant in myself until i wake to find that i myself - little me - is a child of the King the Father, I AM..and i wonder a little more till i know..how i know not everything,..how i can literally do nothing of any worth no matter how beautifully it is dressed and i cry in relief and cry in desperation and say 'here i am..help me..do what You will with me..i am here'..and ever so quietly with a strength that offers the security of a thousand strong arms of love enwrapping you i hear 'ThankYou My Child, I AM Here With You'...and i bow my head with silent tears and I thank my Father in Heaven who has blessed me beyond my dreams has given me a love in this earth beyond my imagination and has taken my tears of sorrow and mourning and turned them into tears of joy and I am surrounded with my brothers and sisters whom i know not and i am free i am whole my mind closed to the persuasiveness of analytical thought which determines one often in self deprecating light or high above their conscious esteem and I know that I know not but to Love that I cannot unless i  ask- surrender my wilfulness of self to His love through me.. and I hope and pray that tomorrow when i awake i will still remember to be willing or take a moment to sit to listen to hear the Holy Spirit whisper 'I AM, I Will Never Leave You Nor Forsake You For You are Mine, My Child'.
 
Ephesians 1:17-23 & Ephesians 3:14-21 Amplified Bible