LeneRoz

After 3 months not being able to go through my daily devotion with God. I am finally beginning again...thanks to the staff from st. thomas church, philadelphia, in sheffield, england. Especially thanks to paul Machoney...i may spell it wrong. but God touched me during their visit, and is still touching me through my deat friend and coach susan howard from healing waters ministry, who came to denmark from LA in the USA. But i must say. al though i have never had trouble feeling Gods present, being away that long, makes it very hard to obey his daily calling. I am to stuck in my brokeness,hiding behind my walls og anger and despite. the worse i feel the more anger and despite i use against people as a defense to protect myself, and making my heart harder and harder in the process. I am struggeling, i am. by no means am i afraid, because, i kniw that my connection to God is stronger than anything that the enemy might throw at me. i might yell at God, turn my face away...but i will always stay close, always end up crying in his arms....and he wil continue to heal my broken heart. But though i have a strong connection to God, it is still hard to follow his command. i fall...and will continue to fall the rest of my life..but he will continue to help stand on my feet again, if not, he will carry me until i can.