Living with hopeful abandon!





What does it mean to live with complete and utter abandon?  The word abandon, in the world in which we live, suggests a negative thing.  Being left alone, discarded, uncared for, erased from memory.  It takes a lot to abandon I would say…


Hope is living with the assurance somewhere within you that this is NOT how it is meant to be and if I just hang on for one more day, then this will pass and better things will come.


Hopeless abandon….  What exactly does that mean and what does it look like ? I have been thinking about this recently and although I don’t quite think I can explain it without waffling on I know that it is something that completely and utterly excites me! 


The idea that if I abandon who I think I am meant to be and live instead in the hope of who I believe and feel I could be then life would just be so different.  To live like God has created me to be and to be unashamedly me whilst I do it!  To be able to have creative moments where I whip out my notebook in the middle of a busy street and begin to write frantically because I had an idea for (or a whole) poem materialise just then.  To climb mountains, surf seas and snowboard peaks! 


To go to the middle of nowhere and live with people and SHOW them that God loves them. To set aside what I WANT for life and care infinitely more that their needs are met and that they know that God loves THEM, and yet to trust that he sees you and knows your hearts desires too without you having to strive, worry or constantly tell him about them!  TO tell him just hte once nad to not think about it again, considering it done no matter how long it takes.


It would be so freeing and liberating and SOOO left of centre to live like that.  I am not sure I have yet met anyone who lives like that.  I do know one guy in his v early 30’s though who I think is closest – He gives the sense that  he knows who he is in God – flaws and all. He realises that he is made for the adventure and although he feels and shows disappointments and stuff, he is not soppy about it. He is pretty awesome.  I also know that his life is not all rose petals and honey and he is real about that sort of stuff.   I can definitely see that God is at work in him – and he still fits right into society!  I love that about him and he inspires me every day to begin to live as though I was already who God has said I am – but its soooooo hard!!!


Living with hopeful abandon….  I want some of that!