This is a really tough week: Forgiveness and Reconcilation!!This is the week where the rubber hits the road, up until now I can moan and tell horror stories but now I have to make life changing decisions: sit with the pain and have a glorious pity-party or begin the process of forgiveness? And I truely believe this is a process. C.S. Lewis said "Forgivenss goes beyond human fairness, it is pardoning those things that can't readily be pardoned at all". Forgiving is a verb and also a choice. And it is on going especially if you are divorced with children because we start by forgiving the big stuf: the pain, the hurt, the abandonement etc but then we have to continually do the small stuff too and it seems to me that it is nearly on a daily basis, sort of like still being married! actually I have forgiven more in my separation then I ever did in my marriage ~ that perhaps tells a story in itself! For another day! Then we moved onto reconciliation. Another toughie, had I done everything I could to make my marriage work? Could I honestly look at my part in the breakdown? Had I even thought about Reconcilation? Was I brave enough to try? How would be friends and family react? Could I risk the pain for my self and my children again? For myself even to think about these issues is progress. What will next week bring...