often i read blogs on here about the mother and daughter relationship and how its great and how there best of friends they recieve emails every other day. they cant go a day with out talking and well this comes from a forgien place for me. i still live at home and still live with my mum and dad.. and while me and my dad argue we dont really fall out as all i have to so after is come down and flick him and it starts into a play fight (my dad never had a boy and im the youngest so i get all the i wish you was a boy syndrome!!!)

but me and my mum we dont get a long its constant argueing with blips of happiness!! its like this morning we have already had a arguement where she just turned into the 'devil woman' calling me names and shouting where i have to keep quite as how dare i argue back some of the things she says to me!

My two older sisters who are much older than me and both married and moved out get along with her great but i think thats all down to the fact they dont live with her any more so hence forgetting what shes actually like. 

so ive decided to move out!! thinking thats the best way for all!! but ive only been hit by the fact that i cant survive with out her i wouldnt be able to afford it what am i doing moving out for im so silly!!! and im sure we've all had the phrase " you'll need me before ill ever need you"

so where do i go from here. i dont want a horrible relationship with her but then i think it cant get any worse maybe i should just move out! dont know what ill do if i cant afford it but atleast the relationship may be bulit!!!


so all this is happening while i ill caught that stupid flu going found so my eyes are watering ive got that constant need to sneeze. and im on a bit of a jesus dry patch for sure!!! so any help ?